Sometimes, when it comes to mental illness, it’s just about getting through the day isn’t it?
Getting through the day amidst the monitoring of moods, taking of medication and trying to strike that ever-so delicate balance between paranoia and self-care:
Is that a symptom? Am I relapsing? Am I just sad or it a sign of something more?
Is this it? Does my diagnosis mean that this is just my life from now on?
These are thoughts I’ve had countless times over the past decade of living with mental illness. Sometimes it’s a little overwhelming and in trying to avoid the lows, it can sometimes feel as if you have to give up on the dizzying heights, too.
At some point over the last couple of months, as I’ve emerged from a year that saw the darkness return with a vengeance, I’ve realised that I don’t want to live my life treading water and looking over my shoulder to see if the darkness is following me.
There is more to life than a struggle for survival. There is life to be lived – and I want to make sure I live it.
Ever since my teens, the words of John 10:10: “The thief comes only to steal and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full,” have given me comfort and hope. It’s Jesus’ promise to his flock – it’s not a promise of an easy life (as much as we may wish it) but it’s the promise of a full life with the presence of the good shepherd.
The thief of mental illness may come to steal life and wreak havoc, but Jesus came that despite what we face we can have a full life. And as his bride, the Church has a part to play.
This week is mental health awareness week and at ThinkTwice we’re setting out five ways to see that life for those with mental illness is #MoreThanSurvival: